s p o t t e d

i did it for you

2012-01-07T09:40:00.000-08:00

knew what i had to do
couldnt find the words to say
we had the perfect story

but the page had to be turn somehow

you know i love you with everything that i have

they say the one that you love are the one you hurt the most

for all the pain that i caused

baby im sorry

hate me, ignore me or do whatever you wanna do (to get back at me)

i just need you to believe this

"i really love you and i will always pray it'll last forever"

2012-01-07T09:19:00.001-08:00

should i quit writing?

why do i have to keep doing this if it was to affect the one that i really love?

2011 checklist

2012-01-03T21:20:00.000-08:00

new year's checklists

Pass O level dengan cemerlangnya: check!

Finish The Way You Move: check!

Masuk form 6: check!

lesen: balum....haha

participate in any dance activities: check! :P

boyfriend: nop...not this year.. :)

make every1 happy: not sure, am i doing it right?

make myself happy: half check! haha

maintain figure: not quite

change style: check!

improve skin condition: half check!

above list was the checklist that i made during the 2010/2011 new years eve

and now, we will see if there's any changes on the next new list of 2011/2012 ;)

Pass A level dengan cemerlangnya: not yet

Publish The Way You Move: not even! i've been fraud! Alaf 21 penipu

leave form 6: half check, tengah tunggu result

lesen: check! :p

participate in any dance activities: check! participated in Sport's day cheerleading for Kesuma!

boyfriend: check! syg Amirul <3

make every1 happy: not sure about this one...

make myself happy: check!

maintain figure: check! thanks to bulan Ramadhan,let's trek and water!

change style: check!

improve skin condition: 3/4 check!

mode: DANL
-N

back to december

2011-12-30T07:52:00.001-08:00

banyak benda yang berlaku

some people just dont get it

but what matter the most is

.....................................

Asher Monroe - Like I Do official music video HD

2011-12-14T05:25:00.000-08:00

his music deserve more likers and comments!

nice song from Asher Monroe!

picture this; what i've been doing

2011-12-12T06:39:00.000-08:00

craz w the cam

kes kusut psl psychology ni..tabir pun stress lehnya

menerikah rambut sipipah...

again....cam-ho ing...

sikit lg tecangak

Wah Pah!!

sisters!

im the Happy bird! :P

prasan cute...haha!

banar! so cannot wait kana replace dinding "Ombak Rindu" d blakang ahh!

capi ehhhh~ BTT :P

mcm aku tah plg kan kawin ni..sebak usul ku atu...maaaahaaa!

why? because i love them smile~

bagaikan pinang dibelah empat~ :p

freestyle!!.....n aku kehabisan style suda

tengok dia main bola during tournament on the 1st Dec..

alhamdulillah, happy 2nd monthsary bb <3

then Let's Trek on the 2nd Dec until the 4th

kami tidak mengerti ertinya lelah..

banar th tuuuu! :P

mid night hunting and guess who yg tidur d blakang? hahaha

lusuh ni muha sorang2...tp kiranya....night glow lah aaa....

nda payah pakai BB cream..

proud to be team 040! we tried new things!

the experience is priceless!

yg penting..we never give up! :)

fishing w him love...hehe..love this kind of date...

chill sambil borak..i suka lah :p

anugerah pelangi :))

mami's brother wedding event

wahhhh..maniss nyerrrr cewek2 berbaju kurung..

not to forget si cinta~ ;))

i love you :')

mode: Kau yang terhebat - Dinshe

-N

busy w hols

2011-12-12T05:59:00.001-08:00

26.11.2011

2011-11-26T10:49:00.001-08:00

a moment to remember

26.11.2011

always be

2011-11-21T02:46:00.001-08:00

what i regret and hate the most is that

we share the same blood

i loath you!!

and there it goes again

2011-11-20T09:04:00.001-08:00

set fire to the rain

Agnes Monica - Rindu

2011-11-18T21:35:00.000-08:00

generally

i really miss you love and them friends :')

mode: Rindu

-N

IT'S BEEN A WHILE I DIDNT SEE YOU, I MISS U B :')

2011-11-14T03:04:00.000-08:00

upset

2011-11-13T06:12:00.000-08:00

NEW BLOG

2011-11-08T07:16:00.000-08:00

hey y'all

i just created a new blog

or shud i say BLOVEL (blog+novel)

hehe, but i haven't post any stories there yet...

it's not 100% ready..

but the stories however is going to be post episode by episode

im gonna start with my two stories

it's horror and romantic

hehe...so wait for it!

I'll be posting the stories' episode if i have my free time from revision mode, orite?

www.auranonastoria.blogspot.com

"la mia storia" is an Italian phrase

which means

my story

the origin story/feedback on Soffiya

I was inspired by Soffiya M-dramas, the ending was pretty dissapointing, for me it's a crappy ending *no offense* Nonetheless, the good thing was that, it was unexpected. So it's not that really cliche-ish..so, credits to the creator of Soffiya. But the drama earn a far more better ending tho, seriously. Because from the start of the drama, i was really hoping the end would be awesome but it turned out....b u l l c r a p!

So to devote myself from the dissapointment of Soffiya's ending, i'am now going to create stories that i wish it can satisfy my readers.

By now, i can't start 100% on novelling yet since i have 3 papers left for A level. But i promise, after 22nd..i will start my writing journey..

mode: are you ready?!

-N

Jessica Sutta - Show Me

2011-11-04T09:08:00.000-07:00

my fav lines along the lyrics;

words are just words

stupid poetry

do you even know me?

love is not a gimmie gimmie

if you really with me

gotta SHOW ME! SHOW ME!

KUIH KUKUS MEKAR

2011-10-31T14:36:00.000-07:00

Ani video cara2 membuat kuih kukus mekar or dari segi kata ku, kuih buhahak..hahahahaha..sorry a. Cali wa video aa..saja2 plg ku merakam n upload ke mari ani. Ntah lahh..datang siut ku td atu kan merakam...usul lagi mengalahkan puteri gunung serdang..apa2 pun apa2 kekurangan video, ku pohon maaf..nyehehehehehe...

feedback:

inda betantu banar video ku atu..manakan, mengedit time malam2 buta...palau2 sudah utak...masih jua ku edit..salnya malas ku edit isuk pagi patang apa..pasal?? confirm ku telalai tuuu, kan revise history :S...hahahahaha biar tia nda menantu dlu...lgpun video main2 sja tu..nyahahahahhaa..
mode: masterchef....esennn!

-N

1ST OF EVERYTHING

2011-10-31T11:20:00.000-07:00

I LOVE YOU MORE THAN JUST A LOVE SONG

Amirul Azwan <3

MY NEW BESTFRIEND!

2011-10-06T07:03:00.000-07:00

Just wanna share something w u guys

H2O is my new bestfriend

Setiap hari selepas ku bangun dari murancah or sebelum tidur,

i usually drink water

i've been doing this for the past two months..well time bulan puasa inda plg..

gilaaaa kali minum aing eberi morning time puasa...hahaha!

But seriously, aku mengalami beberapa perubahan lately

and i know it's due to WATER!

perubahan yang paling ketara sekali

SELERA MAKAN ku berubah!!

Like OMG!

11 benefits of drinking water

it was sooooo true! believe me...

im loving water now....! i know the taste r plain n boring..

but believe me...

it brings colour to your life...

*pakan~* taiepow ehh

hahaha..no what i mean is..

banyak kebaikannya...banarrr!!

Water is the best diet ever..

mode: nyehehehe

-N

HOW DID IT HAPPENED?

2011-10-06T06:20:00.000-07:00

spotted:

i wanna dedicate the ~~tutorial~~/love story video below to my love, Amirul <3

Michelle Phan is such a genius! She now added some stories to her tutorials so that it wud advance her videos. Awesome, i know.

The video below shows how the love started. Well, as u all know some of us had different stories.

I had mine.

And it was unbelievable!

So the lesson from my story was that, just be patient. Don't hate someone just because they hurt you. I know it's not easy but then again, grudge has no gain. If you're nice to people that were mean to you, eventually they will come back and will ask for forgiveness and before you know it, they'll pour you THE LOVE~ And you'll be the happiest person on earth!

But this kind of thing takes time.

That's why patience is extremely crucial!

I'll post my story here.....................SOMEDAY :) Insyaallah..

Im really grateful for all things that happened to me lately. Thank you Allah. Yes indeed the previous stories didnt end so well and yes it SUCKS! But now i know why........it's because God has better plan for me.

You're my miracle! :'))

AND

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!

And now, we'll see how it goes between me and my <3

As Joey Fatone said: "I can't promise forever, but i will try."

And that's what im gonna do now :)

mode: a year w/out rain

-N

Catch My Heart

2011-10-06T05:50:00.000-07:00

MUST WATCH VIDEO!

LONG OR SHORT HAIR?

2011-10-04T06:28:00.000-07:00

thinking of cutting my hair...

but mcm sayang jua...

hmmmmm...

which 1 is better?

SHORT?

LONGER?

mode: whip my hair back and forth

-N

JE T'AIME MA CHERRIE :*

2011-10-02T19:16:00.000-07:00

AMIRUL AZWAN

HE'S THE ONE IN THE MIDDLE

HEHEHE...

I LOVE YOU!!!

for now, i havent own pictures of me and him together,
but someday we will!
lagipun busy w exams, cannot go out on a date dulu... T_T
iatahkan..sayanggggggg nda begambar msatu!!

n the thing that was called "i DESERVE better"

it came true!

because he's my miracle <3

mode: Clumsy cause im falling in love - Fergie

-N

Ready To Fall- Joey Fatone

2011-10-01T03:45:00.000-07:00

it is now official

1st October 2011

the date that i'll always remember after nearly 4 years of being single

You're the amazing one :')

I can't promise forever

But i promise you that I WILL TRY

I LOVE YOU boo :*

ANOTHER CERITA-KAMI (stress is out)

2011-09-24T21:47:00.000-07:00

spotted:

i just made a music video...

well mcm....those kind mcm...entah memorial video..

bukannya apa..

since kami inda lagi batah study leave n will be kejarangan bejumpa d sekolah..

so i made this..

hehehe..to cherish the memory..

it's NICE tho to have this kind of video..

i wanna make more of these lagi..but nanti..right after A level :D

Yesterday, it was fun hanging out w them..
pictures n all that..
we literally screamed like a maniac!
stress banar lah jua..lol!

i felt more relieve and better now..
i hope there's no more shits happen lagi..
if there is...*nauzubillah*
gonna keep praying to God so that i'll be given the strength to endure it...amin ya rabbal alamin

mode: Dancing All Night Long

-N

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MA BABY DOLL PQAH!!

2011-09-23T08:20:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YG KE 20 DOLL!!

HOPE U SUCCESS IN EVERYTHING YOU DO!

DONT EVER GIVE UP!!!

YOU'RE A WINNER!

:)))))

MAY ALLAH BLESS YOU

BE HAPPY B!!!!! :D

-N

WALK AWAY

2011-09-21T06:05:00.000-07:00

spotted:

I thought September this year wud b extremely wonderful and special. However, it turned out....MONTH full of bullcrap! yes....read ma lips.......say it w me............B U L L C R A P!

There were so much bullcrap going on during this month...

and it even started during my birthday..how sad~

and then.....ani lagi...

hmmmm.....

im really stress..but now, i dont wanna think about it anymore..i just wanna let it be..n im gonna keep this away from my head...

will be always sabar..because i know, ada hikmah disebalik semua ani.. :')

A level is like 2 weeks away...so..im gonna keep myself busy w books and everything that was there for me..

starting from now...i found a new hobby..now i know why my bros crazy about fishing..it was fun!!! hahahaha...gonna try it every afternoon...insyaallah...or right after my pms..gonna start hiking...if dad let me...n will no longer w em..im gonna gooo ridin solooooooooooooo~ :p

mode: move your body move your body, gonna dance right through the pain

-N

CHARICE - NOBODY'S SINGIN TO ME ( LYRICS )

2011-09-17T21:39:00.000-07:00

the difference is that

Dont tell me what to do

Cause i know what to do

But i need to know

WHY

I deserve an explanation

BITCH IM SPECIAL!

2011-09-17T01:18:00.000-07:00

spotted:

life sometimes isn't fair..

and i know that...

i will be sabar, sabar, sabar...

because i know, if i remember Him and selalu sujud kepadaNya, insyaallah aku akan diberi kekuatan..and i'am now.

im not gonna fall just because of one guy...

because of a douche.

yeah.

Today hari mu, but nanti2 it wouldn't be always your day. you'll know how it feels nanti. Im not gonna do anything. Im not gonna wait and stay...let Karma do it's nature. Let it turn the life's wheels. I will be sabarrr all the way.

One thing for sure, letting you go is the easiest thing that i ever had to do. But the hardest of all is; the questions of WHY. I dont understand why. But i dont wanna think about it for this 2 months because it might as well wasting my time. Im gonna focus on something else, something that really worth to wait and to be achieve. That is scoring my goal!

mode: -

-N

FUTURE...

2011-09-13T07:43:00.000-07:00

spotted:

sebenarnya nda ku tau kan post apa...

tapi letli, i hab bin tingking.....

study abroad...yeah. Since kana brainwashed leh my uncle 2 hari yg lapas, i got this 2nd thoughts...

i shud banar2i to grab those chance study diluar...

hmmm..apa sbnrnya masalah ku kan nda brapa membanar2i blajar dluar atu?

Well, psl aku nda confident plg tu...banyak competition d brunei ani, meliat urg ber-iya iya bcakap psl sudy abroad n stuff ani...honestly, intimidated rasanya..entah lah.......iatah di sini aku SILAP! Sepatutnya aku pun mesti ada semangat atu....

I still remember uncle story psl 1000cc and 3000cc cars...

hmmmm....

ani personal statement pun ku masih stuck membuat.....aiyohhh...

mode: =======

-N

ALHAMDULILLAH

2011-09-07T04:37:00.000-07:00

spotted:

Everything's back to fine now..

Alhamdulillah :))

mode: with love - Hillary Duff

-N

Get It Right (Glee) - Finn/Rachel

2011-09-03T23:47:00.000-07:00

FINALLY!!

2011-08-28T22:04:00.001-07:00

YAY!!!

MY LICENSE

FINALLY HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

CERITA KAMI - ONCE UPON IN BSB

2011-08-27T09:13:00.000-07:00

im thinking kan buat another video, masatu planning kan buat video pasal raya, tapi inda kesampian..

haha but its ok, i wanna write maybe a draft plot..then maybe i can produce it into a short film? LOL! maybe involving my family...i guess? hahahahahaha!

enjoy~

mode: Wah-Pah!! - Chandler, F.R.I.E.N.D.S

-N

BROOM BROOM!

2011-08-25T09:45:00.000-07:00

hey guys!

yesterday aku driving test...omagassss, perasaaan nervous atuuu hanya TUHAN saja yang tahu. inda tantu rasa la pokoknya...

iatahkan...time menunggu atu...datang seorang contestant yang baru abis test *contestant lah jua* and ia menangis. Mula2 nda ku paham what's going on ejekli...sudah ku buka earpiece ku....baru ta ku paham.....gagal panya :(

mikin pressure ku plg lehnya~~there's a possibility that....erghhhh..but aku remain cool sha...tarus ja ku mendangar lagu apa...

then then..dipendekkan cerita....siuk la jua test atu...kana bawa becerita la jua...aku ani melayan saja...ketawa apa...becerita psl raya..tapi fokus atu fokus lah.. *entah cana ku blh dpt multitasking atu, heran heran*

di forwardkan story......aku PASSS!!!!!!!!!! Alhamdulillah! Syukur kepada ALLAH kerana memakbulkan doa ku :))

alhamdulillah, sanang ta ku ni bejalan2..muhahaha! tapi nada kereta, nda plg bejalan tu..pebaiktah lesen grade A...hahaha..

mode: shut up and drive - Rihanna

-N

Suara Harapan

2011-08-23T07:07:00.000-07:00

Hari ani result AS June 2011 keluarrrrrrrrrrrrrr!

omagasssssssssssss, once aku membaca status matus urg d pesbuk aaa...kan mengurabat nganya inda jantung ani..dabak badak jua lahhh...menaip pun inda tantu..

iatah....kan urg bekurapak sal result keluar kul 1.30...aku resip misis dri DST pukul 2.30....

atu yaaaaaaaa...menutup mata lah jua time membuka sms aaa..*paidah jua tu* mcm meliat crita antu ada juaaa...

iatah skali ku membukaaaa...

gp = u (*lahhh nada dua ps ni*)

his= a (marak mata!!!!!!!!!!!!!! melumpat...tarus keluaaaaar teriak2 mcm urg palui)

"omagad omagad omagad!!!!! history ku A!!!!!!!!! maaaaaaaaaaaa! maaaaaaaaaaaa! yanaaaa! history ku A!!!" ijap bapa meliat slajur aku cematu aaa..hahahahahahahahaha then masuk ke bilik duduk...meliat result econs

Eco = d (matilah ni isuk! *drop tia ehhhhh! nasib ada back up last year)

aku realize result ku ada paling baik n paling terok la jua june ani..time last year moderate saja..hahaha..but apa2 pun ALHAMDULILLAH! THANK YOU ALLAH! Walaupun doa ku kan dapatkan semua inda termakbul..at least aku ACED subject yg banar2 ku tungkalkan atu!!!

ALHAMDULILLAH....menangis la jua tadi..syukur kepada ALLAH! :'))

betexting sama si pkah pun nda lagi tantu..kajarrrrrr kajarrrrrrr ba tangan aa..mcm apaaa...mcm tegelincir ada jua jari jemari ku atu..

So..now...overall AS subject ku Hist- A Psy-B Eco-C (DROP DROP DROP)

Im gonnnnnnaaaaaaaaaa fokuussssssssssssssss banar banar banar banar banar on A2 now!!! FAYARRRRR UPP banar ku ni kan blajar!!!! :D

tapi BADUMM plg ku..sal GP ku suiii a :( but inda apalah...ada hikmahnya kali aku nada dua ps atu...hehehe...

everything happened for a reason :)

lagipun sebulan lagi nganya kan sekulah..lapas atu study leave~~~~~~

n kepada mereka yang ku sayangi; jangan putus asa ok? cuba lagi this november..insyaallah buleh tu! aku percaya kamu bulih! :)) Jangan putus harapan...teeheee..

kita semua boleh!

mode: one day, i'll make u a believer - Charice

-N

B-e-a-utiful- Megan Nicole (Original Song)

2011-08-21T23:06:00.000-07:00

She read me the note he left on her bed
Snuck in her room right after she left
And put petals on the ground
Her head on his shoulder they walk down the hall
I'm left to wonder will I ever fall in love
And where is he now

She's with him, I'm in the back seat
Know it's not right but it hurts when they're laughing
And I've never been where they are

I wanna be blown away
I wanna be swept off my feet
I wanna meet the one who makes it hard for me to breathe
I wanna be lost in love
I wanna be your dream come true
I wanna be scared of how strong I feel for you
Just call me beautiful, Call me beautiful
Call me beautiful, Call me b-e-a-utiful

Friday night she wore his jersey to the game
In the front row screamin out his name
As he turns to her and smiles
Every where I look people holding hands
When am I gonna get my chance at love
My chance at love

Cuz she's with him, I'm still hurting
Try to pretend but it's not working
I just wanna be where they are

I wanna be blown away
I wanna be swept off my feet
I wanna meet the one who makes it hard for me to breathe
I wanna be lost in love
I wanna be your dream come true
I wanna be scared of how strong I feel for you
Just call me beautiful, Call me beautiful
Call me beautiful, Call me b-e-a-utiful

My heart is waiting for your love
My hand is waiting for your touch
My lips just wanna be kissed by you

I wanna be blown away
I wanna be swept off my feet
I wanna meet the one who makes it hard for me to breathe
I wanna be lost in love
I wanna be your dream come true
I wanna be scared of how strong I feel for you
Just call me beautiful, Call me beautiful
Call me beautiful, Call me b-e-a-utiful

mode: This song reminds me how much i wanted to be in love - anon

-N

CHARICE - THANK YOU

2011-08-19T23:37:00.000-07:00

sometimes, we can't be too sure

because if we do

our hearts are gonna crush

hopes,self esteem,

all low

back to square one

back to a lost girl

just gonna accept everything that'll happen

literally scared

im afraid that what i have now

exceeded the limit

and there's a chance that i'm gonna fall

somehow i feel

it's always about me

wanting to make you happy

i really want to

let me or just walk away

up to you

embrace the future,

shed the past,

live fearlessly, #twitterquotes

when you busy keeping your sadness,

you just miss the greatest happiness that was standing infront of you,

do not take them for granted

MA PLURK IS BACK! =P

2011-08-17T09:27:00.000-07:00

S p o t t e D:

as u can see....

ma plurk is officially ON now!!!

beberapa bulan lamanya ku tinggalkan..

and now

i decided

to pakai balik :D

i think almost a year ku tinggalkan..

now tepaksa menaikkan karma balik =___="

hehehehehehe

chiowwwwww

mode: They not gonna keep me down - Charice

-N

ROCK MAMBO W THE BROTHERS

2011-08-17T09:00:00.000-07:00

*dont mind ma ughlayyyyyy voice....HAHAHAHAHA*

its kinda funny actually, i dont even know lagu yang dorang2 pilih, but ada some part atu...i can sing along mcm...EHHH..hahahaha..oh my...i sounded like a boy =___= oh well, thats ME when im w them! *tukar persona much??* maybe =P

spotted;

hey y'all!

today was........8/10!!!

sungkai out @ CA MOHD, cuz i was invited to this MDians prs Muzakarah ceremony..tho im not a prs..hahahaha..sudah d invite,kok nggak datang sih?

hahaha..it was fun! after majlis atu..me, mah n Qyn went to the waterfront...i love the place so much..it was so romantic..good place for a long talk...as in for a date? hahaha why not?

and im actually waiting for the photos *Qyn? :P*

Then~ my brothers mengaga~....Strolling to Gadong w them....this is why i act boyish sometimes..because i spend most of ma time w them....~ hahahaha but....THE HELL W IT! Im just gonna go WAKAKAKAKAKA..despite im wearing baju kurung tonight =__=' hahaha..

Rupanyaaaaaaaaaaaaa.....si abang ani minta dangani shopping fo barang raya la pulak~~~... =___=' haha semangat ya nyamu..almaklum, meng Qada raya taun lapas since last year nda berpeluang menikmati hari raya....

then.........we went to Arcade.....karaoke-ing! buhahahahahaha...tu ada the videos above...

sebelum atu jua.....kami nampak tempurung D di mall...omagas!! tecangang la jua si abang2 aa...MEN~ erghhhhhh Astaghfirullah~~~ hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha

mode: One Day - Charice

-N

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZAMIR ANBIYA! HAHA!

2011-08-15T23:07:00.000-07:00

to my annoying brother

Muhammad Zamir

aka

Setia Nelayan

puffffffffff!

HAHAHA

happy 23rd birthday braaah!

puffffffffffff!

belanja ni belanja

5 0 5 0 50

jangan lupa

hahahahahahahahahahahaha!

semoga di panjangkan umur dan murah rezeki selalu

mudahan sampai dangan "M...~ M~....~.."

hahahahahahahahaha!

mode: "Happy birthday!"

-N

Charice - "Louder" Official Lyric Video

2011-08-15T07:32:00.000-07:00

spotted:

I just love to listen to Charice's songs. I just found out her two new songs and believe me, it was soooooo good!

I love her songs yang Louder.. <3 <3

beri beri nice!

it inspires me a lot!!

mode: Gonna dance right through the pain - Charice

-N

RANDOM....CAUSE I CAN'T SLEEP

2011-08-14T09:54:00.000-07:00

spotted:

seriously...i can't sleep tonight.....

one random texts really bug me out!

i dont think thats mean nor wrong...

hmmm....well yeah..i was mad at em first....

but....knowing that em in misery....

i wanna help n pull em out from that......isnt that like being a good friend regardless how dissapointed we r to them?

hmmmm...and i really dont know..

i can sense something's is wrong plg....near in the future..

but thats just my prediction....i dont know lurus ka inda..wallahuaklam

for the moment....go w the flow. Yup.

i just have this talk w Qyn tadi patang...

n boom! it happened now..

fate? i think yes...maybe it wanna teach me on how to handle things?

hmmmm........

im quite mad at myself. Because, initially i told myself that i had enough being nice to those who hurted me and take me for granted. but, i cudnt do it. I dont have the heart to crush them now..

maybe this show who really needs me and who's not?

or maybe i was easily fooled by people?

I REALLY DONT KNOW!

mode: "I did it for you - Charice"

-N

BIRTHDAY OUTING!

2011-08-14T09:24:00.000-07:00

spotted:

hey guys!

just wanna share something....
it's Nana's 18th birthday today!!! n we went out for sungkai dinner...then get crazy...w photoshoot, birthday surprises n karaoke-ing!!!

it was fun to the MAX!

hahahaha...

happy BIRTHDAY SYAZANA! :P:P

kawan ku 18 sudah!!! LOL! :P

ku doakan dikau success selalu~ amin..dan bahagia di samping mereka dan si dia yang tersayang :))

n video above..atu time kami karaoke-ing...malas kan upload d fb..wahahahaha..sini saja.. :D

video feedback: like seriously....omagas! hahahahahahahaahaha u can hear my voice....TEROK! wahaha mcm apa..burung mendangar pun mati kali ehhh..salute Dato' Siti..seriously..high note banar..we cudnt reach that note....last2...ketawa2 th saja...LOL!

but anyway...hope u enjoy watching it! :D

sebenarnya ada lagi..lagu Untitled by Simple Plan..nganya telampau 'lawa' iatah jadikan harta karun di laptop ani saja..wahahahahahhahahaha

i really had fun going out w diorang...its been a while inda hang out w them...

somehow, teingat pulak kenangan di SMPDSM dlu...di sana tah keluar ulah silly-kiddies kedikami hahahaha..n we still have it tho....

once again...

happy birthday nana!!!!! :D

mode: "Happy Birthday!"

-N

FREEEDOMMMMMM!

2011-08-12T22:49:00.000-07:00

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omagas!

   exam mock abis sudah!!!!

   wohoooooooooooooo!!

alhamdulillah....

history td went well...apa yg ku baca atu ternyata keluar...

alhamdulillah...

   syukur ke atas-Nya kerna mengkabulkan doa ku...

nyeheeeeeeeeeeee.....

tapi lumayan la jua tangan menulis....3jam..History oh History...

   jobo pun apa kurangnya...

manithhhhhhh....hahahahahahahaha

wahhhh random la ku jua hari ani...siuk ehh..ringan rasanya kepala...hikhikhik...

bah ani saja dulu... ;D

mode: Raya, Raya, Raya!!! -Nona

-N

FINALLY HERE!

2011-08-11T20:02:00.000-07:00

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and soooooo the internet is finally ada! woopeeeeeeeeeeee i thought they'll come next week, but rupanya today....wah pah! hahaha...

im gonna go online maniac...but today alum dpt since tommorow is History.. ==' im gonna have one hour break dlu..then i'll go history mode..nyehnyehnyeh..

Alhamdulillah..now sonang mau email kerja and stuff...hahhahahaha

ok randomly lame now..

haha gonna go lovelies..love yah!

mode: aint gonna let you suffocate me - Charice

-N

2011-08-11T07:16:00.001-07:00

something aint right

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i really wanna get back to training..i miss the sweat fest everynight in those 2 weeks last year *dont think dirty*..maksud ku menari ba..hehhh...

Sekali lg...my head fill w millions doubts..prghh..kenapa??? Tau ku plg..but malas ler nak gitau kat sini..tlampau panjang..susah mau dihuraikan..nda jua dpt markah..nyahnyahnyah..

Hmmm..teringat ku plg 'am i dreaming?' kat deluna. I wonder....but hurt jua at the same time...believe me. I still remember bout 23rd..kind of stupid actually. Why do i wanna keep something that always torn me apart?? Clearly..im stuck now. Im freeeeee sudah msatu...well now..pikir punya pikir punya pikir...back to square one! Fo sho, i dont have that feelings plg lg..its just i can still feel the pain *putangina* yes..putangina!! Kahkahkah..ahax...huhu =='

i dont know to whom i shud share this..i dont wanna susahkan telinga2 dorang..ngaleh sja dorang mendangar krg...so blog, aku share sma kau saja ah? Inda kau ngaleh ni ah melayan kawan mu yang serba hot ani?? *ahhhhhh??* hahahaha..

Im feeling a bit random plg tonight..sanak jualah kepala menyumbati history dri td a..

And btw, sebenarnya batah plg sdh ni..aku block fb si 'dorang'. Well, he offended me in some way. Im tryin to help n support him but in return? He mocked me...macam...entah ah. Well sabar~i didnt say anything..but of course, teguris like shit. N a day after, block mission on a roll! I had enough. He totally cross my limit..

Sometimes i wonder if i ever could regain my happiness back? Its like a grain of sand, i thought i oredy tighten my grip but somehow it always slipped through my finger...mnyehhhh =='

nothing...its just, doubts really kills me. Maybe it's just me...im the problem sebenarnya!

mode; i got a love disorder,sick from a paranoia cause my heart been broken before ya - Girlicious

-N

2011-08-10T20:33:00.000-07:00

charice - i did it for you

lately,this song really made me sad..hahahahaha seriously. The lyrics was...omaigosh. Macam apa...membari rawan ati nya urg..tapikan mcm it doesnt make sense..why you have to leave someone you really love? But ku baca balik2 liriknya ni..baru tah ku paham..i hope it never happen to me..she leave him because she cannot be that someone he wanted her to be..

Minutes turn to hours
hours turn to days
knew what i had to do
couldn't find the words to say
we had the perfect story
stories have an end
had to turn the page cause to keep you was a sin.

You know i loved you with everything that i had,
but what you needed i couldn't be held you back,
i cared enough about you to give you the chance to find someone who care.

I broke your heart, i did it for you
tore us apart, i did it for you
just walked away, i did it for you

you wanted more than my everything
someone you knew that i couldnt be
i doubt you ever understand me
but it's true..
I did it for you

i could say im sorry wouldnt mean a thing
tell you what you wanna hear
baby what you wanted wasnt for me
held you by a string
had to cut you loose
cause forever are something we can't be

they say the one that you love are the one you hurt the most
for all the pain that i've caused you
baby, im sorry.

I did it for you...

Sad, isnt it?

Mode: i'am so sorry babe - charice

-N

2011-08-10T20:16:00.001-07:00

im JUST ME, NO OTHER!

Spotted;

hey guys, its been a while inda blogging. Things got pretty busy since it's a mock fever...and my exam abis this saturday woot woot! *banana dance* hahahahahahaha

psychology, hmmmm i def gonna score low since i cannot concentrate time atu...my head feels like mcm kana cucuk..my temp naik....pokoknya i was diserang demam..kalimangau lagi..says mom. Hahaha..

Economics, p4 alhamdulillah...syukur..:)) but my p3 O_O

gp was ok :P

history not yet..gonna start doing jap occupation n nationalism krg..

Oh yeah..at 1 krg im having my 4th lesson..prghhh..last monday,it was quite stressful..i really dont like it when they start menyucuk when ur in the middle of something. Not menyucuk as in menyucuk bnr...they pushed u! Argh forget it..payah kan describe sini..hahahahahahahahaha

yesterday i've been into a lot of thinking. It was shocking to know. But...for me..that was just a past, a history. From what i know..history teach us to fix your mistakes during the past and do what should be done and leave what shouldnt. That was a ''woahhh'' experience..i gotta say..but hey, people's change. =)

to all the things i've said, i wish ikay pumayag din =)

one thing you need to remember, i'am me..there's NO WAY IN HELL im similar like her!

Mode: we can turn it around, after a reset - Charice

-N

2011-07-29T09:45:00.001-07:00

Spotted:

ok, gotta let this out...

Inda cukup dklass? Wassap? U know that i prefer kana marah d klass rather than dri text? Because text sounded more harsh! And plus, im in a pms mode masani! Its easy for me jadi sensitive! U know that rasa when u teguris? Yes! Teguris!

Hmmmm...im feeling really sad n etc when i read her texts tadi..ilang mood ku slajur kan bejalan since tonight sudin blanja makan pasal he's kopral paycheck oredy kluar!! Wow..makan besar for the 2nd time..last week miming blanja..tapi sadly since the text event..im sooooo down down down!

I know its my fault. I shud submit ma hw yesterday...but i truly FORGOT! And i said 'huhu', im NOT laughing! If i'am, i cud've said HAHA instead..see the difference??? I said huhu meaning i was dissapointed w ma self for being such a lame pelupa!

It was sad actually..she misunderstood w my text..n in the end..i got bombarded by her..yes, i know my responsibility n im tryin to bring the best out of me. forgive me for not being good enough for u. Well i guess, im done pleasing others n i need to concentrate for ma self; that is passing econs n drop the subject forever after i left MD! *But maybe im gonna apply the basics for my daily needs..*

huhu > misunderstanding > bombarded text > sensitive > extremely sad!!

N i dont think im gonna enter isuk since i got driving things to handle..plus, i dont think i wanna face her since the text..enough th kana marah nganya..ngaleh ku sudah..*well, im sorry for being such a baby..but im extremely tired!!*

i nearly cry...but tepaksa tahan since tadi public...nada selera kan makan jua!!! Erghhh! Devastated banar ku tu ah!!

Luckily i talked w ''close to you''...he managed to cheer me up...n for that i thank u :'))

sensitive biatch ku malam ani..banar th!

Prghhh...pms really make me a weird person..

Skajap td ku bawa makan gulali...tarus sugar rush!! I laughed a lot during perjalanan dari taman ke lapau..lapau ke yayasan...suddenly i felt like a crazy person..oh well..that define me as a maniac i guess..hahaha

mode; thank you - charice

-N

2011-07-27T05:37:00.001-07:00

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pretty much upset today....

Pms can make u change into a weird person yeah? Erghhh..yesterday i was lauging ma assss off w ma friends...then today, i turn into this weird gloomy b*tch! I got upset for no reason!! Well i know there is, but i just dont get it y it affect me sooooo much!! Erghhhhh...i honked at one car time d round about td..n believe me...i dont know y cna blh tarus cematu cuz usually i dont tend to get mad easily on the road...but td atu...reflexxxx action berabis! *im not driving..i was sitting on the front passenger seat* but it feeeeeeels gooooooooooooooooood~ suddenly i feel like a crazy bitch plg td a..

Ia? Its going well. But for the moment, i wanna shut it down dlu. Not shut as in shut tarus. I wanna hit the 'sleep' button dlu. Y? I feel unease, i have those doubts. Its not about a trust issue...its something else; im not convince! And im scared...because now im standing at the peak of mt. Like! U know what that means kan? N i dont want to put too much hope in it because im scareeeeeeeeeeed! I dont want to get hurt again..!

U know who u r. ''why do birds suddenly appear~''

but i gotta admit...been missing em like crazy...and there aint mystery anymore!

Mode: dont play games or it'll fuck you hard! -Fee

-N

mood swings

2011-07-27T05:27:00.000-07:00

2011-07-21T05:25:00.001-07:00

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2moro is friday, friday, friday.....

Im sooooo bored...

But banyak hw...gonna finish half of it by tonight..

2moro extra class n it's 22nd! :p :p

oh yeah n btw, i just wanna say happy birthday to mami!!!!! :p happy 19th birthday..hehehehehehehehehehehe
goodluck n enjoy ur day bebeh!

Im worried, mock exam nda lg batah...pfffffft...n btw! Im extremely worried entering gp this saturday..my oh my...pfffft...nevertheless, need to enter! Sal i cant go to the dental since i got presentation jua that day...arghhhhhhh cant get mc..pffffft...

Je t'aime segmen? Hehehe...it's going well..4th level? Not yet...still in the 2nd level.. :)) u make me happy!

Mode: love like this - natasha bedingfield

-N

2011-07-18T07:29:00.001-07:00

just finish memanyap file......

Planning kan buat pyp tonight..but memandangkan i have to do research...tpaksa postpone..blahhhhhhhhh!

Im quite nervous fo mib tho... :S

econs td, alhamdulilah!!!!!!!!!!!!! Nasib nda kana tanya but i was hoping ia tanya plg....dpt jua ku luahkan sgala2nya.....tunggulah nanti.....nanti? Time ia marah lg....but mudahan moodnya baek spanjangan dua minggu ani...revision th lg...mak oiiiiiiiiiiiiii...hell period tu dalam dunia econs ku.. :////

psy n hist....my fav class ever...social studies r FUN!!! I LOVE the environment jua...bisai lah...siuk belajar wa...SIUK!

Skulah...mcm biasa...ok lah...but kabak2 la jua fo this upcoming mock exam....kan tepelanting nganya nda jantung a....sikit lg mengurabat...*ahhhhh?*

----------- je t'aime segmen...

Hmmmm..i need to be confident in myself...maybe aku kali tlmpau worry bnr? Apa nya urg...tlmpau bnyk pikir? Entah la...somehow im not convinced..what a stupid random feeling i may say....i need to be in a SLEEP mode for the next 3 days..and we'll see how? But...surely....miss em fo sho... :D geehehehe...but aku takut...bnr bnr takut... :(((((

-----------me myself and i segmen
i dont know y masani im suck at talking. Mcm...stammered nganya ku kalau bckp? Apa nya ni a bhasa melayu nya ni ah..gagap?? Ahhh gagap! Y????? Indakan 3 Hari cuti drumah duduk dpn laptop nganya kali? Bckp jua ku...pffft...speaking skill ku kureng! Payah ni payah!!! Mybe self confidence ku dpn public kurang atu kali jua....kali lah..*cuba kamu kali dua*<--hahahaha!

Mode: u smile, i smile - Justin Bieber

-N

BUTTERFLIES!

2011-07-17T05:46:00.000-07:00

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i got hit by lightning lovebugstruck.

I reallly had fun last night...

My heart skip a beat everytime;
Your eyes glaze to the screen as if your looking directly to my eyes....and the funny thing was...i looked down everytime u did that....as if you were there standing infront of me minus the screen (real lah...)

:)

in conclusion....

The L bomb...no joke :)))))))))

mode: close to you - Olivia Ong

-N

I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS IS ACTUALLY ME....

2011-07-16T04:52:00.000-07:00

-N

:P

2011-07-15T01:49:00.000-07:00

WISH

COULD

PART

YOUR

WORLD~~~~

<3 <3

-N

IM OFFICIALLY BACK!

2011-07-14T07:27:00.000-07:00

spotted:

i was trying kan blogging thru ma phone, but entah..panjang2 di taip..sekalinya meluah ani...KOSONG! Blank page...kurang @!#@!!

apa boleh buat...

iatakan..

aku ani sebenarnya kan becerita ba...

banyak ceritaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...

cerita suka, duka....dan menytresskan..

suka ku masani...ehehehehehehehehehe..nanti tah...time ku ready ada ku mory2 rh kamu tu..

duka...ergh! aku makin stress msani...History and Pyschology ok plg..but atu tah..economic ku...hmmmmm...kalau bulih starting ani inda ku mau masuk lagi..kalau bulih th start awal ani aku mau study sendiri! pasal? ada tah tu....negative environment... O_O''

hmmm..blank blank....

mode: you make me happy - Nona

-N

FIRST LEVEL

2011-07-09T06:29:00.000-07:00

SOMETHING WRONG W MY BLOG!

2011-07-09T06:15:00.000-07:00

spotted: hey lovelies! i dont know y cemana blh my latest post yg im back atu nada contentnya...prghhhh panjang lebar ku menaip...takan post...skali liat...kusung! ergh ok

im back!

2011-07-06T02:44:00.000-07:00

MASQUERADE PARTY!

2011-06-16T10:13:00.000-07:00

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alhamdulillah, masquerade suprise birthday party Dee berjalan dengan lancar!! it was the bomb that night. We had fun dancing around, playing games taking pictures apa! Thank you so much to all guests yg datang. We really appreciate it. and also to the Whadda band yg performed that night. Thank u so much!! :P :P

"disco ball"

berusah lah jua..haha

the organizers! PA's and HB

Whadda Band

hadi kambang! hahahaha!

happy birthday Duratul Hikma! :P :P :P

Qyn's suprise!!! :P

lets dance together session!

dance freeze game!

freeze pose paling mahal!

ani lagi tia...hahaha!

music chair!

ijap ku dorang tehimpit ani...

MUHAHAHAHAAAAAA

King of the Night (Best Dress Male) - Hamzi

Queen of the Night (Best Dress Female) Syahirah

Para pemenang bersama2 dengan PA's n HB :))

mode: "Party in the USA." Miley Cyrus

not to forget..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEE! :))

-N

SO FAR SO GOOD

2011-06-16T08:54:00.000-07:00

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Hehehe, so far holiday masani alhamdulillah not bad. I got myself H.D aka H.F btw. LoL! I did not expect atu plg sebenarnya. Hikhikhik..

It was fun...we were at the beach. I was taught on how to play a guitar n i SUCKED! brabis! hahahahahaha!

mode: "never say never." Justin Bieber

-N

REUNION

2011-06-09T00:36:00.000-07:00

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so sayang i dont have the pictures. But last Saturday was the bomb. It wasn't initially because ada urang atu....realllly pisssed me off! Mmbarikan mengantak la jua kepalanya atu. but then, i just wanna let go. Bejalan tarus malam atu. Well, bukannya bejalan saja2. Andang kana invite jua 2 days before arah majlis my friend d Mentiri. It's her birthday party (doa selamat). And time sampai sana......i met my old friends! My PDSM'IANS friends! wahhh it's been a long time inda jumpa dorang. We were like: "AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA" mcm urang gila la jua bejumpa. Haha..it was fun. Mcm good old times dulu. Ketawa, lame jokes..hahaha..

mode: "Love me, love me, say that you love me." The Cardigans

-N

NEVER LOSE!

2011-05-31T08:33:00.000-07:00

spotted:

I just gotta let this out!

I was fine within these months but things started to change last night. His picture popped out on my homepage, which i may say quite SUCKY! *Yes u suck!*

Since then, insomnia attack *partly due to Band Hero* and this morning,bangun round 8 plus. Banyak bejalan today, i got home @9. Patang atu ada plg balik but then sambung bejalan. I didnt feel well, bawa liat Beastly, it was siuk and i felt loveydovey n everything, but only for a while. Oh my god, i can't deny the fact that he distorted my mind! And it affects me so much. Yes im strong enough to endure this. But i dont know why TODAY i was like.....ekkk?! Where is strong Nona that i invented? Where is she??? Is it because the pressure of handling the task? or is it that I dont have enough rest? Too much worries? Stress? Stress? Stress? Stress?!!!! or maybe that fucking "23rd"?

Even now, im really dizzy and my back hurts.

I wanna dance. Because only by dancing i can get pass through all of this.

Well of course, what happened to me now was fully my fault. Because i didnt managed to fulfill my responsibility in taking care of my health physically/mentally.

Sometimes when you are in the verge of stress, you just have to stop for a bit and relax then continue right? I just have to take another day off 2moro. Because i need to get away and have a good day full of rest. I need to refresh and restart my week. So that i have the strength to complete this! I will never lose! Never! Especially em!!

mode: "I dont feel good." Nona

-N

EYE INCIDENT

2011-05-26T01:50:00.000-07:00

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Today was.....sejarah n mengajar ku supaya membawa lens case everyday ke skulah!! Seriously. When i was talking w Dee n Mah di PRS room..mata ku rasa a bit padih cause mcm ada habuk ba..it was annoying actually.

Mau nda mau tepaksa jua ku bawa ke jamban. Ku basuh mata ku ngan aing kan..but nda mau jua ilang habuknya a. N i dont know mcm mana blh ku nda ragu2 membuka lens ku. then ku cuci balik (w water) cause i dont have the solution kan....then then kan ku masukkan balik..nda mau!!!

mau plg but i felt weird psl its not like kebiasaan ku makai lens w solution..lain la rasanya..n it's not really fluidy-ish-kind-of-way..rakat dgn mata ku...mun ku biarkan ijap ku merakat dgn eye ball ku..nda ku mau mmbuat mara..isuk lagi kan exam..haha!

iata susah hati ku ni...mencari solution apa..si Dee nda membawa..waaaa nightmare! i was trying so hard kan menangis (bedramatik ku d jamban td) kan ku ngatkan segala sad moments apa...tepaksa ku ingati mua si Jelama dulu...February moments...nda jua ku mau menangis!! like AAAAAA! I need tears so maybe ia blh jadi alternative for solutions..haha! inda mau a...

then last2..ku msj c Cath..nasib jua ia ada membawa..puhhhhhh..nasib! kalau nda..kareng lens ku...banar..spanjangan ku mencari solutions...mcm buta stampik rasanya..manakan sbalah tarang.sbalah kabur..

haiyooo..lapas ani mesti ku standby lens case sma solution ni...banar!!!

mode: "when you look me in the eyes." Jonas Brother

-N

LIE A SMILE

2011-05-19T07:27:00.000-07:00

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Haha, sadis jua title ku atu. Lie a smile? Hahaha nada paper..nak kasi suspen sikit :))

Right now, im tired to be miserable...! I WANNA B HAPPY! Sometimes u gotta make urself happy w/out having to wait something/someone to make u happy. I know this sounds silly in a way, but hey...no one can help u until u help yourself right?

Tadi exam econs paper 2..omaigad...apa yg ku expect atu ada kluar..tapi yg calinya, it's toooooo easy until im toooo frickin confuseeeee by it!! shizzz man. But alhamdulillah i managed to answer the other qs..except that im confuse with my part (a) berdoaaaaaaaaaaa banar ku mudahan jua lurus! O_O"

n the SBQ omaigoshhhhhh! membarikan mencarik ada jua..ahhhh! it's too complicated..mahn!

pecaya??? tadi pagi when i was doing my revision d bilik...i didnt realize that masani my home menjalani 'pembedahan atap baru'..iata kan the kontraktor ngam melakap atap di atas bilik ku n masang yg baru...!!!!! Ahhhh!!! wrong timing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! atu ya DADAK DADAK bunyinya!!! membarikan meneraisssss "OMAIGOSHHHHHHH..GET OFFFFF FROM MA FACE!!!" well it's ear actually. Haha!!stress jua la tadi atu..tapi cali jua..memori..haha!

tommorow off day..puhhhhhhhh

so tonight..officially website-ing..muhahaha. Initially kan head out..but dont know where to go.....so stay drumah sha. N i was kan buat Michelle Phan's tutorial anime eyes n sexy glasses..but inda ku tekabbir kan membuat nyamu...lelah~~~~~~~~~~~ membersihkan make up lagi krg..puhhhh tak ada energy ler.....

Btw, i can't wait for the agendasss after this AS...muhahahaha..time to get crazayyyyyyy and bZayyyyyy! Well..sebelum A2 ani jua..nyuhahahaha!

kata-kata motivasi fo the day: "Dont let people affect you, let you affect them." *mcm lintang pukang english ku atu*

mode: "if i walk would you run? If i stop would you come?" Asher Book

-N

HEY HEY

2011-05-16T01:46:00.000-07:00

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hai lovelies!!!

minggu ani adalah minggu yang meng'indahkan dan men'nyeksa kan..muhahaha..nada deh. 4 hari beturut2 ani free from class fo study leave..but study leave nya ani d skulah. i can't study di rumah pasal DAPUR will distract me! hahahahahahahaha! Tommorow paper History *doom ma chale doom macha le...doom doom doom*

Last week...hehe "mencari" and "hyper" after "mencari". Wahahahahahahaha! Paham kamu? inda? usah di pahami..paning karang.

Today was crazy. Sepanjangan di PRS room..then ke LT, then zooming ke Sumbangsih time lunch. Pretty much siuk altho i know tommorow's my exam. and i skip GP class *psl PS* n guess what...mau 3 kali aku KAN TECLASH SAMA SIR! AHHHH! no...4 kali! kantoi! inda plg kantoi..i hope ia nda kenal aku......tia karang! mudah2an la jua. Next week mudahan nda doom-ing banar..

Btw btw...tadi pagi ba...mcm......HE HE HE HE....but then i realize..banyak HE HE HE ku ani. Tadi lunch ia jua..baru jua ku menyabut si "sejarah" atu rah si Dee time block 2, udah di Sumbangsih..NAH! kejumpahan! Nasib jua ku inda..." hey x...ssup man? it's been 3 years sudah.." wahahahahaha mcm apa.

Then time balik...kejumpahan si Bracey sama G6...mcm banyak kan HEHEHEHE atu?! Sudah ku inda hope kan teclash atu...clash of the titans tia! mnyehhhhh! jelama sorang atu nganya inda.....*ani hoping* tapi nada...hahahaha! cool saja nah.

Gila kali...blogging time isuknya kan exam....BANGUN NAH! BANGUN!!! sadar tah ehhhh!

sebenarnya kan..banyak hot story kan ku mory2 dangan kamu ani...dengan rasminya salah seorang sahabat ku telah bergelar "<3"..aisehhhhhh! congratzzzz babe! nyehehehehehehehehe

tarus menyanyi lagu "All by myself~~" dangan si Mah...muhahahaha...bila ta gayanya giliran ku ani..

Tadi ba nyamu eh..lapas membalikan Milo si mami sama si Shaz...singgah kami rah library baru a....LAWA! bangga ku eh library MD baru a *sudah atu, anu yang lama dilaknat2 dulu." Hahahahaha! ada banyak bilik...iata kan ada dua tiga buah bilik atu..masih lapang...lantainya lagi yang jenis wood floor...puhhhh mun di buatkan studio menari..LAWA tu bhaiiiii! tinggal d bagi ceramin nganya lagi tu...LAWA!!!!!!!!! tinggi bangunannya lagi mcm spuluh tingkat...gayat! *adeh*

bah, berinut ku dulu ah? mau segar2 sama History dulu..puhhhhhh..takuuuuuuuuuuut!

mode: "But you can deny, the spark in between us when we dancing on the floor." Britney Spears

-N

MD SPORT DAY!!!

2011-05-07T09:04:00.000-07:00

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Today was awesome! seriously!!! Kesuma House was at the 4th place plg overall..congratulations to Putera btw :)) But our acara perbarisan dan persembahan got 2nd place!! WOWWWWW!!! :P :P :P

Can't wait to see the video..menyehehehehehehehehe..

camera flashing everywhere..n we were like:

okhay-lang?!!!

okhay!!!

Lagi-lang!!

okhay!!!

Today was the bomb!

time standby, we're soooo nervous!!

there's a time that i thought that i CAN'T do it

But when we got infront of the grandstand and in the middle of the crowd

n the music starts...

i felt something struck me..

i felt like i was posessed!

then i start to dance fiercely!

mahn..it was awesome!!! :P

GOOD JOB KESUMA MARCHING n CHEERLEADING PARTICIPANTS!

<3<3<3

see the pictures below fo yourself :P

one of my fav pic yesterday..hahahaha!

cheering first routine last formation

i shouted when 2nd routine about to start..mwahahahaha it feels good!

Kesuma cheerleaders!!!! <3<3<3

You lieeeeee~~~~~~ :P

Fav quote of the day:

"OKHAY LANG?!!!!"

IM GONNNA MISSSSS PRACTICE

W THE KESUMA CHEERLEADERS, COACH N TEACHER

SO MUCH NOW!!!! :'P

MODE: "I dont want to be dancing if it isn't with you." Eqah

-N

SPORTY WEEK

2011-05-04T06:40:00.000-07:00

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Hey lovelies!!!! :P Apa kabar kamu? Aku sini alhamdulillah baik2 aja...

Minggu ani adalah minggu yang meletihkan dan menyeronokkkan! Hahahaha...seriously..

Inda ku skulah nyamu eh time hari Selasa a..saket ba blakang badan..hari ani skulah pun bejalan macam astronot baru turun dari bulan..

But alhamdulillah nda sesakit kemarin lah a...

iata ba..kan becerita jua ku ni...

anu ba....

apehh???

hilang ide...

anu nganya...sibuk2 ani...ditambah lagi dangan pressure homework, presentation...AS exam!!! mahhhhhhh...indahnnya...si abang lagi nda batah kan betunang..ni hari Ahad a..lalatamplong banar...

tapi inda apa..minggu dapan fo sho rindu ku plg ni kan minggu ani....huhu..

i so love to dance...

I just let all my dissapointment out and turn it as an energy fo me to dance passionately! Gillllz..emo jua aku atu..antam tia kali!

Hehehehehehehehehe

bah..me keluar a?

mahu habis ini MCQ...bikin aku gila....! Isuk lagi ni...hmmm..sajuk2kan tlinga dulu..isuk, partly 11-12 ku..80% chance to "habislah"! economic kali ah...sbulan nda ada..nda sah!

mode: "Sakit yang badan ku." My friend

-N

ECSTATIC BAH AKU! :P

2011-04-28T05:37:00.000-07:00

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haiiiii!!! :P it's been a busy month...preparing fo AS and ALL....there's lot of activities going on, seriously.

AS of kos, essay! essay! essay! Sebulan ani bekawan sama past year paper saja..iata..hahaha

New hobby: Mengail. Of kos w si Mah..hahahahaha! Favourite location: Library, Gadong. Masani umpan ku abis sudah, and langsung nada satu pun menyangkut, abis2 pun Bedukang...how "cool" is that?! Hahahahaha! Ikan Salmon langsung kana tangkap sudah..mnyeh!!!

Sports day inda lagi batah. As ani senior year, i shud do something that'll highlighted my Upper Sixth moments! and guess what?! I joined cheerleading! :P And hari ani yg ke 2nd day sudah blatih. It was okay..and banyak idea mencurah2..mcm aing paip muntah nya urg. Wahahahahahaha!I hope the routine is going to WOW the mdians next week. Amin ya rabbal alamin! :D

apalagi ah...

bah makan ku a? nyehehehe..love you all!

mode: "You have two options: You choose to be happy and live happily or choose to be miserable, sad and all." Someone to Mahyuddin to me :)

-N

GOTTA CHANGE

2011-04-21T07:27:00.000-07:00

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guys, u know what? now i know kenapa aku mcm BREEZE d skulah. Ms. Invisible nya urang? hahahaha...i mean, people rarely look at me..maybe because they were afraid? I realize my friends always cakap "serious jua?" whenever i walked sorang2 around skulah..n Pkah just told me, i looked like i wanna kill someone! OMAIGAD! that is serious issue mahn! I gotta change my expression! hahahahahaha..not change..just enhance it..to make it more better nya urang. Hahahahahaha! OMG! OMG! selama ani..rupanya..AKU MARUNG! erghhhhhh! stress ku ehh..and pkah cakap lagi.."whenever kau bejalan atu..mcm kau atu ada problem?" waduhhhh..berat rasanya..hahahahaha. Ya Rabbi..cana ni banar a..mesti exercise ni banar2 dapan cramin n dirumah...kana pikir palau. hahaha.

But seriously....AM I THAT SERIOUS??

Ahh natural expression whenever im alone kali..tp kesian jua a..kira miserable jua tu aku a..mcm apa! hahahahaha! Gosh!!!

mode: "I just wanna thank you." Charice

-N

INILAH KENYATAANNYA

2011-04-15T09:13:00.000-07:00

Bertahun menanti,

Kenyataan dihadapkan,

Bagaikan batu loncatan,

Jawapan yang dinanti,

Bakal merobek hati.

Melangkah ke hadapan,

Jangan cuba pandang belakang,

Aku cuba,

Sangka ku akan berjaya,

Ternyata aku gagal.

Tidak ada gunanya untuk aku lupa sepenuhnya

Jika aku tidak belajar untuk melepaskannya.

Maka dengan itu,

Aku melepaskan mu perlahan,

Memori tetap akan selalu terpahat,

Walau kita tidak pernah menjadi satu,

Kerna kamu adalah yang terbaik yang pernah ada di dalam hidupku.

~~"Takkan pernah ada selain diri mu?"~~

Aku percaya yang memang ada yang lain selain diri mu. Aku hanya mesti menunggu dan mencari...

mode: "Takkan pernah ada." Geisha

-N

1-9

2011-04-13T06:15:00.000-07:00

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i just want to say
HAPPY BIRTHDAY to.....

NURAFIFAH BINTI NORDIN!!

semoga panjang umur

di rahmati selalu

Berjaya dalam peperiksaan tahun ani pah!! :P

walaupun ku jauh di gadong,

manakala dikau pula di meragang,

kau akan selalu bertakhta di kepala ku

yang serba canggih ani

(NYOT!!!!!)

hahahahahahahahahahahahaha!

HAppy birthday yoh!

maintain cali mu

^_^

Afifah dengan aksi nya yang.......

uWOW!!!

Hahaha

muda masih ni ah pah? 2009 ni.. :P

ur 19th now!!! :D:D no longer 18..lahh nda tah dpt belesen ni? 18 limpas sudah..wahahahahahahaha!

p/s: Happy birthday to others MDIANs people who had their birthday today! :)) Galang and my registration mate.

mode: "Something like you." N Sync

-N

RANDOM

2011-04-07T03:46:00.000-07:00

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helo helo awesomers!! :))

im back!

not much story to share here..

im not feeling very well lately...after i played Squash last Tuesday, i thought i was fine...but the next morning...it feels like there's something in my throat (EWWW) haha! *Jokes* But seriously....payah kan breath and swallow..mnyehhhh. So i decided to skip school that day....temperature was kuam kuam susu tho..lol! *suam suam kuku bah* malas ku kan ke klinik..karang ada tia doktor karit kan membagi mc. Mcm taun lapas...(8!7c#!!) ooppss..ma bad...8!7c#! sasak ku tu ah..inda ku pernah lupa tu jelama a! *tapi lupa plg ku muanya cana* but i still remembered what she said..dasar urg inda ingau kan kesihatan urg..tau gaji basar tapi service mcm baie! nah toooo..marah ku tu a...

ok enough...right now..headache, backache n temperature badan mikin naik..like omagosh!!! ACHoooooo! *alhamdulillah*

Btw, hari ani aku mau mengucapkan selamat ulang tahun kepada Sulaiman..atupun dikenali sebagai abang Sulai... :P awu wah man :P :P hahahahahahahahaha. I pray fo yo success man!

Ak Sulaiman :)

mode: "never hate." Nona

-N

BULL WORDS

2011-03-31T04:22:00.000-07:00

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I thought it was natural. But unfortunately there was something, however fo you, ignore-talk-swore-back is the best solution, is it? Well i don't blame you fully plg...because the fault was almost entirely ours..and quarter? tau2 lah a? Inda ku payah gtau..k?

But kan..the part yg i really don't understand is that..i did told u kan? kan? KAN? Then habis? Why you wanna act like that? Why you have to misperceived everything? Do i have to explain it more further ka? I told that because i care about you, it's not the opposite. If i didnt care what will happen to u, i would just don't give a fucking damn about it. Kenapa kau masih mau salah paham atu kan? Why? WHY?? That's why i HATE middlemen. I HATE...got that? balum? I HATE! If i hurt you..or WE hurt you, we are TRULY SORRY. But remember this, the way you expressed your feelings thru that text really hurts me. Kenapa kau mesti buat catu? Im dissapointed, banar. I know how you feel. All the emotions and that anger, i know. But have you ever consider how would we feel when you post that? Have you? Never? Is it? you just want we to know how angry you were. Yes we know now, and now we want you to know, that sentence really kills us. Not literally kill, but it gradually tortured me. When you post that words, all i ever could think of is my fault and macam kana tampar rasanya? Yes kana tampar, i couldn't say more how HURT it was. (*_*,) So which one tah bisai ni? Tau then marah or inda kana gtau then marah?

And to other you, i wanna congratulate that you had lost my trust due to the fact your-poisoned-quietness, that is abusing my trust. So CONGRATULATIONS again..don't you ever wish to get it back because i will NEVER EVER EVER EVER trust you anymore. Got that? It's better to put it this way, daripada u hear this from people and get hurt, better u read this bullshit by yourself, k? :)

I thought i can just sabar, but you know everybody had their limits right? So do i.........

au u too pun ada limitnya jua...i know that...i said "everybody", ok?

so..

In conclusion, fo the first time ever.....

i was dissapointed...

yes...

you-know-by-who...so i dont have to state it here..malu saja karang..

paham sudah? :)

balum? mau aku cakap dapan2?

inda? bah...up to u...

one day, you'll realize jua tu why.

On what?

Everything lah..

ok?

one last question:

do you really even understand that terms?

Think about it...

Bah...

mode: "Viva" forever? I doubt that."

p/s: this goes to the others also. If i knew that some of you turn out to be like the 'other you', im sure you..100% you'll lose my trust and will never ever gonna retrieve it back. No 2nd chance.

-N

GONE WITH THE WIND

2011-03-29T03:58:00.000-07:00

will be back

soon

gonna miss u guys

-N

BBQ!

2011-03-20T23:04:00.000-07:00

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Yesterday, my family n me bbq-ing d pantai muara. We got there @10 kali..kesian sudin..menunggu di pondok dari pkul 7...wahahahahhhhhahahahahaa! Sorang nya lagi nganya tu..

iatakan...kan dijadikan cerita..kemarin..nyaman makan atu tatap! Then....make up! wahahahahahahahaha! i know crazy! kaka ku tu..: "nah! andang bawa make up set mu...photoshoot tani di sana.." << crazy ideas! tapi aku ani mau jua membawa..hahaha

iata..after makan...busy ni make up apa...pelik plg rasanya dapan public atu....but peduli tah eh..hahaha

siuk2 begambar after wards....pecaya kamu? belimpang on the ground! near pokok! pffft..nasib nda bekulirangga apa...

Then..time to make up kan my 2nd sister......then ntah kenapa, in all of a sudden i looked towards pondok sebalah ani.....then there HE was! Standing near the table! I was like O_O??????????????? What the??? I got into the past-games lagi..where my hands kajar2 n stuff......i saw the UNEXPECTED..the Ghost of my past..

when i looked at the pictures back at home..he was included in 2 pix..i zoom in...rupanya..ia andang ada di sana since after i watched Strike and make up kan my 1st sister....tsk tsk tsk...

around 4 ish...we played Kaki Tiga...it was FUN berabis..yet tiring. hahahahahahahahahahahaha! cali la pokoknya..then 5 ish..we go to pantai..first time, in all of these years...playing w the ombak...padih mata..atu banar~ hahahhahahahaha but yeah..baru tah ku mandi pantai tu since Sukan Ria keluarga in 2002 ka 2001 tu..

then we went home...seriously.....TIRED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and hajat tidur awal ani supaya tebangun fo extra class today...but guess what..i missed it! Gilak! habislah!!!!!!! masin mulut si pkah atu..inda ku datang ba extra class ari ani...bangun pukul berapa???

mode: "in all the things that you never ever told me, and all the smile that you never gonna give." My Chemical Romance

-N

2011-03-18T01:00:00.001-07:00

if you wanna be with me

baby

there's a price to pay

APABILA KU BERDIRI

2011-03-15T08:50:00.000-07:00

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tau kamu kan tu apa ertinya? Ahhhh..iatah tu. Pffft....kusut kali ku a. Macam apa..but i tried to b positive as i can td..udah ta sleepy..mnyehhhh..datang k rumah..besiram n etc...TIDUR!

Iata ba kan..aku ani sebenarnya kan becerita. Tapi.....aku inda tau cerita apa yg patut ku ceritakan. Last post ku pasal apa banar a? Batah udah ku nda blogging ani yo..

Eh au wa...aku ani kan menyambung ta kan membuat novel ku yang baru ani. Masa tu tergantung a. Tlampau banyak assignment...prghhh. Banar ta jua nya urg atu..A level is hard! Banar tah tu~~ Anyway, iata ba novel ku a. Banyak idea meluah dari utak ku yang serba canggih ani..astah, angkat bakul sendiri ==' hahahahahahahaha! Tapi seriously..banyak sudah idea ku ani. Al maklum, this story will be based on my real experience..but i twisted lagi dangan fantasi..hehehehe...mestilah, apa nya urg putih? To make things more interesting? apa nya urg melayu jua? Brunei siuk. Iata kepada pembaca2 ku yang ku hormati dan yang paling penting, yang ku sayangi..tunggu sha a? Doa2kan jua, novel ku yang baru ani siap dalam masa yang singkat..nada main tangguh2 lagi. Hehehehehehe...n n..doa2 kan jua apa yang ku kana emel ulih alaf21 atu BANAR BANAR terjadi! Kana gtau tahun 2011 plg sudah..tapi nda tau bulan berapa. Ani bulan Mac sudah...so...hehehehe i hope banar2 happen..takut ku mun nda jadi..hampa jua ku tu a. Kalah hampa ku yang masa tu...

Skulah? Kamu mau tau? pertama kali dalam hidup ku. Aku aher bangun pasal aku mimpi aku dskulah sudah. O_O!!!! Iata akibat aher tidur tu..iata kawan2, jangan aher tidur....jara banar ku. Hari isnin lagi tu. Mnyehhhh..lapas atu..awal tidur saja ta ku.. alhamdulillah...bisai jua. Tapi 2 hari lapas ani..aher nganya...buat assignment :O pedih pedih..lol!!

Je t'aime...hehehehehehehehe...apa hehehe??? boring ni love life ku masa ni. Apa tu..tegantung a. Tapi chill sha..enjoy2 along the way..haha mun ada..ada tah tu...relek...me still young... ^_^

Inda lagi batah cutiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii victory dance!!!! apa ehhhh..lapas cuti...membayar utang!!! History, 10 essays, Economic 2 essays n 3 days eextra classes....pyschology, new 16GB memory untuk mempelajari topik seterusnya, AS June exams waiting. Nyahahahahaha.inda terperi indahnya form 6 ani..banar tah =='

Bah..sebelum ku mengundur diri. Terlebih dahulu aku mahu mengucapkan SELAMAT ULANG TAHUN YANG KE 18 KEPADA NURHAFIZAH RAZIQIN BT HJ YUSOF! :D aisemen.....18 ya sudah~~~ hehehehehe..jangan kusut2 lagi ya? :D n be happy always w ur beloved ur family, ur love and of course..US the awesomers...hehehehehehehehehe..i hope u'll pass A level successfully! n achieve everything u wish for.. :P

n of kos...maintain dimple mu :P

mode: "Done a lil bit of everything." Ne yo

-N

FEEL AGAIN

2011-03-05T22:46:00.000-08:00

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hey y'all. How you doin? This week has been a tiring week EVER! Well, time ujung2 kan weekend atu plg. I don't feel well lately..i dont know why. Slalu headache saja. O_O aiyoo! Too much problem...but screw it! I dont want to talk about it. It's been a very moody week. But inda plg semua. Ada la yang siuknya atu. I oredy saw Bridal Photoshoot last Friday. It was SSSSSSSSizling lawa. I looked like 60's. Hahahahahahaha! But fee's pose was VVVVOGUE! But masih satu picture baru. alum smua kana tag :D

Ergh..i dont know why i got so sensitive w em lately. Entah eh! But yang calinya....he makes me happy....but annoyed *girgitan* sometimes. Argh! I just wanna choke him last night! Seriously! Bakal saja di screen. Hahahahahahahaha! Just go on w the flow saja.

mode: "stay up." Gabrielle Nozuka

-N

MODEL TO MODELLED

2011-03-04T06:37:00.000-08:00

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hey everyone! Today was the best day ever!!! Well technically im stayin at Fee's house, and last night my sister texted me either me n fee interested kan join Bridal Photoshoot d Gadong ka nda....i was like :P:P:P:P

So di pendekkan cerita, me n fee went to Centrepoint at 1pm.....and make up n stuff...click2 photo......pukul 10 baru sampai rumah O_O

but it was fun!!!!

Finally, having the chance to model infront of REAL photographers...it was sooo cool! :D

and now im waiting for the pictures kana tag di Facebook..kan liat cana usul kami..wahahahahaha..siuk la pokoknya...i hope ada lagi soon :))

mode: "Feel again." Taio Cruz

-N

HEAR THIS

2011-02-27T09:12:00.000-08:00

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is this normal? im not that type..yang always dangar lagu malay romantic..seriously. Im not insulting, it's just im a kind of girl yang always dangar lagu....YEBAAAA! HITZ! that make u wanna dance...but this time...im kind into this song....i know the lyric was way too deep! and it touched my heart....

yeah..history stabbed me. And i found a new chapter....that seems so uncertain.

"Bila cinta kini tak lagi bermakna, yang ku rasa kini hanyalah nestapa. Ditinggalkan cinta masa lalu, dulu kau tawarkan manisnya janjimu yang ku sambut itu dengan segenap hati ku. Bila engkau pergi tinggalkanku, hilangnya cinta mu menusuk hati ku hingga ku memilih cinta yang fana. Perginya diri mu merobek jantungku hingga ku terjatuh ke dalam harapan." -Gio (Bila Cinta)

-N

FOBIA

2011-02-27T07:59:00.000-08:00

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one thing that really scared me

is.....

having to own the feeling

where you

ready to accept that person...

who comes to you...

but in the end....they leave you

and torn you heart into pieces...

God, please...don't let that happen to me...

Amin Ya Rabbal Alamin

mode: "Bila cinta kini tak lagi bermakna." Gio

-N

THIS FEELING

2011-02-25T06:20:00.000-08:00

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hey peeps..ssup? hehe...February is such a wonderful month..yeah for me..pasal banyak cuti..n lot of things happened actually. Good things of course..

But kan..i still had that fear. That damn fear! You'll know people have difficulties in letting go of their past. What if they leave you just because they still stucked within their history?? That would be awful! I dont want that to happen again! Im sick of it. I dont wanna feel like that night where i feel numb at the beginning but then end up hurting myself so much! Too hurt...till u can feel something stab your heart. It's just extremely awful, u know. I was traumatized...Seriously.

Pffft..apa2 pun i will keep on bertawakal :)) Praying for the best thing to happen. Both of us had our own-different history..yet same plot.

Ok last night..it was wonderful..thank you :)) I really had fun. Hehe...overall, it was a memorable night out. And i didnt expect plg this to happen..hehe :))))

mode: "I could be in love, but i just don't know." Ne Yo

-N

ALHAMDULILLAH

2011-02-19T10:59:00.000-08:00

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I can't stop smiling right now. hahaha. Alhamdulillah everything was done! My busyness weeks has ended people! Oh yeah~~ hahaha...now back to my regular activities, novelling :)) and slapping people..whaahaha nada deh..astaghfirullah.

Everytime i watched the video, i smiled and laughed histerically! Wahahahahahaha..it was so funny. It was worth it having to stayed at Qyn's crib for almost 12 hours...! Night before, i went to bed around 2 ish? and woke up at 8?? Crazyyy...i know. But we really had fun n crazy time..hahahahahaha...reckless ba..especially time lunch atu..hahahaha!

I thought when i was there, i had the time kan revise economic, edit presentation for report and correction for psychology..but i was totally wrong! For the whole day, the thing that i only focused on is EDITING THE VIDEO...waaaaaaa! A bit freak out pasal i was worried jua isuknya kan antar all my school works atu..plus test economic kemarin. Waaaa....pokoknya bedaunlah. But alhamdulillah, i was able to do the essays...both of my hand and my brain cramped at the end of the class! But im not sure if one of the essay aku jawap correct ka nda sal..tau lah problem payah kan paham soalan ani..haiaaa sajuk ba classroom a..i was feeling unwell jua...

dijadikan cerita, last night..otw balik dari Qyn...i feel so...cold..different sajuknya..mcm seram sajuk..tp mun ketaguran nda jua patut...tp ntah la..when i got home..i did my works...n it was 2 plus am....i went ke dapur..n u know that takut2 n u feel something is near u? i felt that...but i dont wanna think about it too much. Ijap jua ku tu..mun in all of a sudden appear tia 'si dangan' atu dapan mu!! Gilaaaaa! Nauzubillah...

Then mnyambung economic mcq until pkul 2 brapa kah..i felt dizzzy brabis..mcm kan pengsan ada jua..iatah im afraid pengsan di skulah isuknya..*drama much* hahahahaha! but alhamdulillah time d skulah..nothing happened. Awal2 time history atu saja i felt really sick! But trying to keep myself positive as i can be..n nasib ada ramai my fren di LT time break n time ps...after kami submit pendrive ke SA, tarus kami hang d cafe and watched CERITA KAMI! Hahahahahahahahaha it was fun...:D

Well done to my friends, best actors and actress..:)) This video won't be successful if it wasn't them who worked off and did their best :) Huge thanks to: Qyn, Mah, Mami, Dee, Hadi, Syahirah, Yadiy, Bill, Shazry and Rafi :) It doesn't matter if we win or lose....it's all about the experience and having fun working together..kind of excited..waiting for the 26th...hahahahahaha..wanted to see how wud people react after they watch the video. :)

Now im making the trailer..just for fun nanti i uploaded..after the 26th :)) A memory to remember as we're MD students. Two years is not long....therefore, with that...there's something u can replenish ur mind right after u graduate from UNI and working. :)
Bla bla bla...after economic test...paning kembali~ argh...makin sakit plg...balik rumah..tarus tidur...bangun pukul.....ehem...puhhhhh...

n now..i can't sleep...maybe after this i'll read Lagu Cinta..hehehehehe..

ok move on to segmen jtaime; "alhamdulillah,things passed by steadily. But i merely scared. What if all of this is not meant to be? and i'll be the broken-hearted girl again? I dont want that! Thats why now, i dont want to put too much hope in it..because if i did so..i will end up hurting myself. Nevertheless, im happy now. And i thank you. :) But if he turned out just like that MR. who leaves people hanging....i will definitely gonna kick u in the face...no joke. Im sick of that kind of behaviour...if you are too chickened to tell someone the truth about love and only wanted to run away leaving that person, don't you ever dare to enter that world. It will be just a waste of space because you don't deserve to be in it! !" No offense but it's true. If you keeps on giving them hope but you already know u can't keep your promise because you're a chicken, just go fuck other things than hurting them..you just wasting their time because you are the fucking barrier that blocked their way to meet their true love and distanced them for a long period.

mode: "Breaking waves of change" Samantha James

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2011-02-17T09:11:00.000-08:00

spotted:

please...

i just wish

there is NO

broken-hearted girl role

ANYMORE!

I ain't gonna play that part!

never ever.....

i wish :(

amin ya rabbal alamin

mode: "Is it you?" Cassie

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OPEN YOUR EYES

2011-02-14T02:25:00.001-08:00

spotted:

Nelly:"If you ever loved somebody put your hands up!"

Me: and now im raising my hands up.....to the air!

Nelly:"Thinkin bout u, thinkin bout me, thinkin bout us
what we gonna be?"

Me: i open my eyes, and it's only just a dream.

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Gotta let this fear go away. :)

he was out

me still here

standing strong

ready to take another chance

but not sure when, who, will be coming

one thing for sure

never let one lil thing out of my sight

because i know

small things.......can give you the biggest sparks ever :)

and im waiting....

waiting for that sparks to come..

as Mah says: "Good things come to those who waits."

and i strongly believe that

3? Gosh i can't believe it actually...

But im glad that im still survive..having fun..yet seul

Ok, enough w the cheesy talk..nyahahaha. Hmm i just finish my Gp test tadi..and...it was ok. Tawakal saja. Taulah, u never know what u do wrong until u saw that red marks on ur paper.. O_O i hope sir won't badummmm me for not doing the essay properly.

i still havent figure out what was the name of the perfume..goshhhh i really wanna go and say hey to that person and just ask em what perfume ia wear..mehehehehe...BUT I DONT HAVE THE GUTS! Gosh...what the hell..mengapa ia???? Well basically because ia pakai the same perfume w the person that i knew last year..thats why i was curious..and plus..initially i hate that kind of scent..but eventually.......im head over heals w that!!!!!! Im practically in love...........w the perfume...duh~

mode: "Didn't give you all my love, I guess now I got my payback." Nelly

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ARGH! MANIAC!

2011-02-12T04:12:00.000-08:00

spotted:

This is why i need my license! I need to head out! When i asked everybody @ home....strolling outside bandar n chill for just ONE NIGHT...they was like...malas ku eh. But when it comes to a thing that THEIR FRIENDS, GF, BF asking them out...it was like KILAT MENYAMBAR! !@$#@#%#@%#% Fuck it! Your own families?? Banyak songeh n stuff..@$#@$!#$ i hate this!!! N one thing that made me EXTREMELY DISSAPOINTED IS THAT...when i asked them to jalan n stuff lagi..they replied: "Agatah mendrive wah!"

That sentence really made me wanna punch them in the butt! Seriously..u guyss r annoying!!!!! I WOULD DRIVE THE DAMN CAR IF I JUST HAVE MY DRIVING LICENCE YOU TARTTTTTTTTTT!!!!!!!

I was really stress n cranky tonight...well maybe because my fucking period starts today..so yeah..but another half of it...is because i was fucking angry that people in this house did not care about what i need? @$@!#@!#@!#!@!!!!!!

Fuck it! i hate this!

i just wish that i have someone to talk to.....especially...goshhhhh!!

plus this loneliness really add this fucking annoyance...someone to talk w..someone to share story w...someone special...

p/s: sorry for the bad words...this pms thingy really made me outta control...

mode: "just take my hand, fall in love with me again." Bruno Mars.

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RESULT AS!

2011-02-05T06:48:00.001-08:00

spotted:

guess what?? banyak benda yang terjadi hari ani!! and yang paling the bombastik lagi was....RESULT AS KELUAR SUDAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Alhamdulillah..i did well for my Pyschology, i got B..fuhhh..i wanna upgrade ke A this June..but memandangkan........tepaksa ku drop jua. Hmmmm..but its okay. Aku mesti aim higher fo my A2. :)

As for my economic and history, totally.........ok plg but it's not enough! I got C for my econs and history..D! Uwahhhhh! Well salah ku plg jua pasal inda brapa membanar2i History..nah D plg! turun! mnyehhhhhh..but its okay. Membakar semangat untuk dapatkan A for AS june ani..buhaha!

mode: "im screaming on my own!" Paramore

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INDEPENDENT WOMAN!

2011-02-04T05:51:00.000-08:00

spotted:

adehhh, independent gitu~ hahahaha. Dalam dua hari ani, i have read this book MARS AND VENUS STARTING OVER, written by John Gray. n you know what? It was sooooo good! It opened my eyes..*well andang bebuka plg sudah mata ani..* What i mean is, after i read it, i feel more stronger..more! Menipu plg tu if i didnt say that i didn't 'tersadai', but ani inda lagi berapa. Ada plg menyangkut ke tabing, but inda batah...now im going w the flow~ feels free~~ and i oredy hid my diary book.....n i promised to myself, by the time i read that book back...i already in love w someone who is not him :) I WILL!! i wouldn't feel devastated again and always wondered what's wrong w me. never. I believe that there r someone waiting for me, and im waiting for him. *which i dont know who* haha.

Insyaallah, we will meet w each other someday. Someone who will love me for who i'am and someone who i love for who he is..

now, it's just a matter of time la tu. Maybe ada hikmahnya i was turned down atu, why? Inda semestinya semua tani dapat. For now, eventhough my lovelife sucks, alhamdulillah...i have my families and my friends by my side, and my study..it went well...we're not perfect.

Masani, busy time! -Video shooting -Photoshoot (perhaps) -Editing -Presentation -APR -membuat novel baru lagi. O_O"

But baik la jua kali tu sibuk nganya atu...lupa jua ku kan manusia sorang atu...HAHA!

mode: "I just haven't met you yet." Michael Bubley < lurus ani?<="" ka="" namanya="" p="">

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EYES ON FIRE

2011-01-28T08:17:00.000-08:00

spotted:

i was inspired to do another make up session. Hehehe..i was frickin bored w my sister di rumah yesterday n plan kan head out..but inda tau kan ke mana. Then..

miming: "bah..be make up eh......(pause) begambar?"
i was like...."Bah! lakastah!"

wahahahahahahaha! tarus cuci mua n everything n tarus pakai foundation n etc....but i was clueless, theme apa patut ku pakai ni? I was kan pilih "pretty purple" pulang, it kinda barbie-ish eyes...but i oredy did the Azura Fairytopia look..more likely barbie plg jua..iata that night i want something different..then ntah cemana tarus tepikir bayangan "fire" atu...so i started lah "melukis" warna api rah my eyes...hahahahaha..but before atu...i did the "water inspired look" to my sister..then she add flowers...so the theme was im the bad witch and she's a goody fairy. Hahahaha something like that la...i was trying to look like BAD! but it was so hard! soo..i just do SEXY...tu nah..u can see my facebook dp..

nda clear eyeshadow nya...esehhh tarus jadi dp slajur x a si kaka a :D

entah kenapa la tangan ku cematu atu..hahahaha! payah kan looked evil time ani

pasal si mas nda abis2 ketawa..! l.o.l

it's hard to pose like those ANTM models..now i know why some of them were struggling

in posing..HAHAHA! Even my sis sendiri complained: "ngalih eh jadi model ani!" LOL!

and tadi ada sambutan hari jadi Babu di rumah nini. N it was fun! lucky draw...uwahhhhh senyum lebar mama pasal kebanyakan kami dapat barang dapur nganya..wahahaha..alhamdulillah...

lucky draw!!! :D

birthday lady~ happy birthday bo :P

siuk meliat kanak2 iski kan kek ani..hehehe

me, zuhdi and pkah~ :D:D

mode: "Jangan kau ulangi menyakiti aku sesuka kelakuan mu, ku bukan manusia yang tidak berfikir." Geisha

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AURANONA

2011-01-26T05:09:00.000-08:00

spotted:

i was blurred patang tadi. Then....tarus make up n created this look. Well basically, i was inspired by the look of Azura from Barbie Fairytopia :)) Quite ok la..but inda tau bagi y'all cana :D

More like mcm Aurora Eyes but i do not use any black eyeshadow. Mostlynya Aqua, Purple n White.

I uploaded yg others @ facebook...just check it out if u want :)

mode: "still trying." Nona

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THIS IS REAL, THIS IS ME!

2011-01-24T06:20:00.000-08:00

spotted:

Hush, just stop,
There’s nothing you can do or say,
I’ve had enough
You might think that I won't make it on my own
But now
I’m STRONGER than yesterday
Now it’s nothing but my way
My lonliness ain’t killing me no more

That I ever thought that I could be,
I used to go with the flow
Didn’t really care ‘bout me
You might think that I can’t take it, but you’re wrong

Here I go, on my own
I don’t need nobody, better off alone

i thought im unable to go through this. But it was funny when i found out i do have the strengths to endure this. Well, it is indescribable pain actually. Traumatized, of course. But as long as i know the answer, so i don't have to worry about wasting my time focusing on one thing and didn't care much about other things. So, my mode now is...."fuck all love songs". Have fun and be yourself. Let it comes naturally.

This experience taught me well on how to handle things. Here an advice to both guys and girls out there.

To guys: please be a man, step up and tell them the truth. Do you think leaving them hanging for a long time would discourage them to pursue you? It depends, but for me. They won't. Instead, it's like you're torturing their feelings. Curiosity will hunt them and it'll leave a massive question mark above their head. So my advice, be a man and gather your guts to make the first move and explain the truth. and please, do not give them any hopes if you're not intend to.

To girls: Don't be afraid in taking chances. Do not waste your time in sorrows, it will worsen your condition even more. What's important here is...honesty. They turn you down? Yes it hurts. But life keeps moving and what you have to do is start a new life and move on. Trust me, if you happen to deal with this kind of situation, and you endure it positively, im sure it will make you even more stronger. They turn you down because not what you lack of, it's because you're still haven't meet the right one yet. :)

mode: "the type of guy who doesn't see what she has until she leaves." Aly and Aj Michalka

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IT'S NOT A DREAM

2011-01-23T07:22:00.000-08:00

spotted:

feeling numb,
not a great week,
somewhat memorable,
not sweet nor wonderful,

million tears that's not worth for a single person,
only for me,
you will not understand,
because you didn't know how it feels,

sweet karma,
what goes around comes around,
throwing paper plane to the air,
hence it comes back to you again,

the questions already answered,
moving on is the best options,
ain't going to wait nor revenge,

for the moment
feelings never gone
it might fade eventually,
but not now

just like being stabbed,
but still alive,
only one cure,
that is........

hoping and praying for the best
i will
you will
we will

mode: "people rise together when they believe that tommorow change the day forever, and life keeps moving. We need to let go." Samantha James.

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MY DREAM MAN

2011-01-21T03:42:00.000-08:00

spotted:

you guys know him right?

No?

Ok...

His name is Syamsul Yusof

An actor, director, scriptwriter...

Oh Gosh! I just love this guy! hahaha..

He's not that handsome plg...

Rugged!

Thats why i like it! Buhaha!

I know him when i watched his movie;

Evolusi KL Drift 1

and he was literally drifting his car...and when the camera focus on his eyes while racing..

i was like MELTING brabissssss! gilaaaaaaa! hahahahahaha!

I was like: "Siapa kan ni?? Plakon baru ka??"

and now.....i went head over heals w this artist..hahahaha

I realize style nya always...Jacket till elbow..ragad..fuhhhh..

This is my dream guy ever!

His eyes la especiallynya..

I REALLLLLLY like that kind of eyes..for guys

and yesterday, i watched Khurafat w my siblings d Qlap...

and i rate it 10/10!!!

seriously!! it was the best malay horror movie ever!!!!!

Well done Syamsul!

Common jua kali a interest mcm ani ni..

some of you suka Korean artist and whatsoev..

Me....

this Malay artist drives me nuts!!! hahahhahahahaha

mode: "cause you're amazing, just the way you are." Bruno Mars
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MISSION COMPLETED!!!

2011-01-19T03:39:00.000-08:00

spotted:

auuuu..excited ku ni!!!! hahahaha...ahirnya dpt juga wallet yg ku idamkan!

*skadar*

thanks to my sis! hehehehe :D

Dorang balik hari ani....hahahahaha...but me n my dad dtg aher...aku atu kan nganakan dorang if nunggu dorang keluar dari pintu terminal atu..*terminal ka?* al maklum..nda pernah naik kapal terbang~ :X auuu kesian...but inda apa..nanti merasai ku tu..alang2..1st time naik kapal time ku ke UK nanti.... *wahahahaha sandi angan2 a..*

mode: "you in a world of your own." -Mandy Moore

SEXY VS GEI$HA

2011-01-17T06:33:00.000-08:00

Beuspotted:

i've done both tutorial..well hari ani yg Geisha and kemarin kemarin Sexy Smokey Eyes. Nah liat tia ulih kamu. If u want to look like this as well, just click this link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cDUlcgDfYTo this one is Geisha Halloween Tutorial, by Michelle Phan. Well of course, hers is way better than me. Nyehehehe..

GEISHA HALLOWEEN TUTORIAL

sawadikap~~~ hahaha

and another one is the

SEXY SMOKEY EYES!

i created this look btw..hehe

orange and light blue as the base colour

then i add medium dark grey mix w brown

blend, blend,blend

apply black eyeliner

white eyeshadows near my tearducts

and im using Fresh Kon Shimmering Gray :))

So? What do you think? :D

p/s: sorry for the background..wahahahaha..

my siblings brought the camera with them..so i dont have any option than using webcam..hahaha pity me..

mode: "want you to make me feel like im the only girl in the world." Rihanna

-N

ONE WISH

2011-01-15T18:13:00.000-08:00

spotted:

Hmmmm..rumah masani sunyi as only me, adi ku n my parents nganya di rumah. The rest masani d KL! Mnyehhhh..

But it's alright.i've got to conquer broadband..buhahahahahaha!

Still.......................sunyi~

as now jua i was like really.....not sure w the thing tha goes around me. ykwis?

Banar jua nya si dee atu..rasakan d rungkup ***** ani..hahahahahahahahahaha!

i just wish my plan goes well plg. I dont want to stop half way. But knowing the fact IF atu...gonna cost million worths of pain plg tu..menyahahahaha..ha-ha.

mode: "I wondering something that you said would never die." V Factory

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AM I DREAMING?

2011-01-14T04:32:00.000-08:00

spotted:

Lately, aku sma family ku selalu menumpah. Bukan menumpah aing eh..menumpah ambuyat. Start aku membuat masa tu....mikin nyanyat ta dorang. Thanks to Mumtaz dulu mengajar time menumpah dskulah :D

n tonight all my kaka n abang busy packing. Because 2moro they're going to KL!!! *kl baby~* hahahaha...jealous ku!! ergh...napa ku nda ikut? hmmmm..psl paspot ku ijau...not allowed to go outside borneo...n i dont have $$$$ to shop abroad..boring jua tu nda busin shopping time belayar..mnyehhhhh...so sabar lah saja..nanti2 ku ngumpul duit thennnnnnnn......belayar! buhahaha! n i bet by that time bis kaka n abang tau sdh jalan2 di kl...siuk jua tu..kira ada free-tour-guide..nyehehehehe..like Mahy said, "good things come to those who wait." l.o.l

n u know what...im extremely happy nowadays..bukan happy BUHAHAHA-all-the-time. U know~ that kind of happy senyum-sweet-angau-sendiri2 wahahahaha! but yeah...true..hehehe..i feel like im dreaming. But ntah a..mcm i did not expect plg it turn to be like this..n i hope it will continuously cematu..hehehehehehe...i just hope that i can tell him nanti..n i will actually..nda tau bila nganya. Thanks to my friends n especially Pkah for supporting me..hehehe..i did it yesterday n guess what??? the result was beyond~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~AWESOME!

my god..what happened to me?!~..haha!

well this is just a just-me-n-didnt-know-he's-feeling plg baru ni. Kekekeke..ergh..its like i wanna shout it out..but i can't do it over texting...baru tu a dpt beterais dlm msj..well blh plg tu..like this: "I LIKE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!" wahahahahahahaha..nganya tkut pikirnya ku marah..atu bnr..di race~! hahahahaha

n n kemarin..my older brother n kaka ku sorang nampak aku bz texting..n they thought i was like dating over the phone...mcm apa~ hahahaha but yeah..that time i was texting plg..hehehehehehe..n my brother urge me..phone spotcheck! after i finished sending messages...i just gave my phone rah ia. There's nothing to afraid of. Its not like im guilty or something..hahahahaha..n he saw the 'name~'...n tanya...siapa ni a?! i was lmao berabis!!!! since when? hahahahaha...but ia nda plg marah...main2 saja. n im glad he check it..so that he know. Ada one time atu..dorang pikir im a L..like What the hell?!!!!!! i'am certainly not! haiaaa..apa punya orang..but i understand..maybe because dorang liat i never dating(r/ship) w an1 in these years...apala...ndakan smpai aku kan.....hishhh!

alhamdulillah.

mode: "i won't give up..im so much in love" -Bruno Mars

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THE QUESTIONS OF REAL

2011-01-12T07:46:00.001-08:00

spotted:

has it occured to you, that sort of butterflies feelings in your stomach? that love dovey feelings? Especially when you are looking at their pictures with songs playing in your ears n it send directly to your brain n right thru your heart n thats why you're feeling something......beautiful, wonderful, calm....kind of anxious excited right in your heart?

I wud say this: it is wonderful. it's like you're surrounded by rainbow..well of course u can't see it...but u can feel it. No kidding......

but i dont want to over exaggerate plg.... *too late...i just did O_O* HAHAHAHAHA!

it was true though..i've been feeling this.....

this Runaway song made me thinking of him....it's like i was standing on a place like meadows where it was windy, it blows my hair softly....the surrounding was so calm n i kept remembering him n feeling grateful for having this such feelings. Oh gosh..it was beyond wonderful.

But who am i kidding? There are chances that i will bear this feeling alone...so, nevertheless..if that happen..all i can do is just move on...but will always remember that to be in this situation is the greatest thing that happen to me. I wouldn't blame anyone..it's just fate. :)

But if he is feeling the same way? All i can say is....let things go w the flow :) AMIN!!!!!! l.o.l

mode: n_n

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